Panicrocs' Journals

Sorry.

Sorry is such an over used word

People say it all the time when they donâ�™t really mean it.

And then when someone truly is sorry, it means nothing.

When we were little we were always taught to say sorry if we hurt another kidsâ�™ feelings.

Even if we didnâ�™t mean it, it was still the right thing to say.

I love you is also another commonly over used phrase.

Donâ�™t say it, if you donâ�™t mean it.

Pointless journal, I know.

I just needed to say that.

It has been going through my head all day.

Everything and Nothing All At Once

This is basically a random journal about things that are going through my head.

If I can think of It, I will type it.

Buzznet was an accident for me.

I didnâ�™t really mean to make friends on here.

But I am glad I did.

I helped Rachel out of her depression, and that makes me proud.

I canâ�™t wait until the day I turn 18, but I donâ�™t want to grow up.

I cannot wait until summer.

I want it to be Saturday and sunny/rainy for the rest of forever.

This journal is probably going to be about everything and nothing all at the same time.

If you read it all and comment I will be very surprised.

Danielle and I are bringing back the word rad.

Help us?

We also got smarterchild on AIM to admit he was a cat.

Jackieâ�™s AIM icon is a monkey with a banana.

But the banana is the size of the monkey.

So, is the monkey short?

Or is the banana huge?

Whenever I spell banana I have to think of the song Hollaback Girl by Gwen Stefani.

Why did No Doubt break up?

I have been hearing rumors that Ryan Ross got arrested?

Still very confused about that.

So yeah, I like to ramble.

I love so many of my buzznet friends.

You know who you are.

Isabella loves me.

Rachel loves me too.

That makes me happy.

My computer is black.

I never really noticed that before.

I love the song The Great Escape by Boys Like Girls.

I suggest you listen to it.

I have never been in a fight with my best friend Megan.

Ever.

I have known her since 1^st grade.

I hate my school, but I donâ�™t want to leave.

People think that catholic school kids are absolutely perfect and love God.

I donâ�™t even know if I believe in God.

And I am far from perfect.

What the hell is buzzmob?

My neighbor is painting his house white and itâ�™s blinding me.

I go over to Collinâ�™s too much.

I have a track meet tomorrow.

Ew.

My cell phone is red.

Donâ�™t ask why.

I also go to Hot Topic a lot.

If I could, I would just buy the store.

Yesterday I was reading one of Audreyâ�™s journals and the tile was, Why do pictures get more views and comment then journal entries?

Or something like that.

Why is that?

Why would you rather look at a person then find out what they are about?

I donâ�™t understand myself, but others say they do.

I understand Jackie. Haha.

See Distrubia.

Itâ�™s a good movie.

Many more things are going through my head, I just donâ�™t want to bore you to death if you are actully reading this.

I love you.

The Polyphonic Spree

My friend sean just told me about this band.

There are 20 people in it...and they all wear robes.

Not kidding.

It's odd.

yeah...

Here you go:: http://www.myspace.com/polyphonicspree

Another journal about Isabella...

and how much i love her!

She wrote the sweetest journal for me.::http://iacostamed.buzznet.com/user/journal/139198/

I love her so much.

She is incrediable.

I would do anything for her!

She is always there for me when I'm bored, lol, or when i just want to talk.

I started talking to her a few months after i added her, i dont know why I didn't talk to her sooner.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ISABELLA!

Don't worry, you're not losing me anytime soon.

omg. whata freak.

Isabella is weird.

She doesn't like cheese.

Therefor; I decalare her a freak.

But; i mean that in a ~~bad~~ good way.

Oliver Skyes...lmao

adoreparamore x3 (1:41:56 PM): DID YOU GET THE PICTURE I SENT?

reflectionsarexx (1:42:10 PM): yyeahh i did

adoreparamore x3 (1:42:14 PM): HEHE

reflectionsarexx (1:42:20 PM): http://photobucket.com/mediadetail/?media=http%3A%2F%2Fi55.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fg142%2Fmarch93%2Foliverskyes.jpg&searchTerm=Oliver%20Skyes

reflectionsarexx (1:43:22 PM): ...

adoreparamore x3 (1:43:36 PM): HES PRETTY

adoreparamore x3 (1:43:39 PM): LOL

reflectionsarexx (1:43:46 PM): i know...he`s miiinneee.

reflectionsarexx (1:44:05 PM): Oliver Skyes. In the really weird band...That kinda throws off my love for him...:/

adoreparamore x3 (1:44:24 PM): HE HAS A COOL NECK!

reflectionsarexx signed off at 1:44:25 PM.

reflectionsarexx is offline and will receive your IMs when signing back in.

adoreparamore x3 (1:44:25 PM): xd

adoreparamore x3 (1:44:29 PM): XD

reflectionsarexx (1:44:53 PM): bahahaha. i`ll track him dowwnn just to say,"Hey, Oliver, Rachel thinks you have a cool neck..."

reflectionsarexx signed on at 1:45:07 PM.

adoreparamore x3 (1:45:13 PM): COOL

adoreparamore x3 (1:45:22 PM): THANKS

reflectionsarexx (1:45:29 PM): yeah, then he`ll be like,"Who the fuck is Rachel?" XD

reflectionsarexx (1:45:44 PM): In his British accent of course..

reflectionsarexx (1:45:45 PM): .

adoreparamore x3 (1:45:50 PM): AND THEN YOU'LL SAY..."THE COOLEST PERSON ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH

adoreparamore x3 (1:45:53 PM): "

reflectionsarexx (1:46:08 PM): Nahh, I`ll say,"Someone who wants to fuck you. [[:"

adoreparamore x3 (1:46:14 PM): NO

adoreparamore x3 (1:46:18 PM): I JUST LIKE HIS NECK

adoreparamore x3 (1:46:19 PM): !

adoreparamore x3 (1:46:21 PM): XD

reflectionsarexx (1:46:22 PM): suuureee..

reflectionsarexx (1:46:26 PM): right now,

ATTENTION (1:46:34 PM): Direct IM session disconnected.

reflectionsarexx (1:46:46 PM): you are imaginning him in your bedd. XD

adoreparamore x3 (1:46:50 PM): HOW DID YOU KNOW?!

reflectionsarexx (1:46:59 PM): GAAHH, that`s a scaryy thought...

reflectionsarexx (1:47:04 PM): i`ma cool kiddie.

adoreparamore x3 (1:46:59 PM): LOL

reflectionsarexx (1:47:31 PM): IT IS!!! You wake up and BOOM! Oliver Skyes is sleeping next to you. o.o...

adoreparamore x3 (1:47:39 PM): THAT WOULD BE KINDA SCARY...

adoreparamore x3 (1:47:53 PM): BUT AWESOME

reflectionsarexx (1:48:05 PM): YEAHHH. and the scarier part is that you are both nude. GAAHHH.

reflectionsarexx (1:48:17 PM): yeah, especially with his drool all over you...

adoreparamore x3 (1:48:14 PM): 0_0

adoreparamore x3 (1:48:15 PM): OMG

adoreparamore x3 (1:48:16 PM): STOP

reflectionsarexx (1:48:25 PM): HAHAHAHA

reflectionsarexx (1:48:34 PM): sorry.

adoreparamore x3 (1:48:32 PM): LOL

reflectionsarexx (1:48:41 PM): i think i have been talking to Wendy too much.

adoreparamore x3 (1:48:36 PM): LMAO

reflectionsarexx (1:49:17 PM): ...I`m gunna tell Rachel...
And IzzieLizzie...
But then Rachel will say: That's what happens to people with weak bladders...

reflectionsarexx (1:49:31 PM): And IzzieLizzie will say: lmao!

adoreparamore x3 (1:49:28 PM): LOL

reflectionsarexx (1:49:57 PM): and i`ll get no helpp...And all this will happen again.

adoreparamore x3 (1:49:53 PM): OR YOU COULD JUST PUT THE CONVO ON BUZZNET

adoreparamore x3 (1:49:54 PM): LOL

reflectionsarexx (1:50:08 PM): BAHAHAHA. I could...And I will. >.<

adoreparamore x3 (1:50:16 PM): YOU NEED HELP THOUGH

reflectionsarexx (1:50:22 PM): oorrr, you could. x]]

adoreparamore x3 (1:50:23 PM): OKAY

reflectionsarexx (1:50:36 PM): yesss. put it in a journal...

reflectionsarexx (1:50:39 PM): bahahaha.

adoreparamore x3 (1:50:42 PM): AND I'LL PUT THE PIC OF HIM WITH THE CONVO

adoreparamore x3 (1:50:46 PM): LOL

reflectionsarexx (1:50:52 PM): YESSS.

reflectionsarexx (1:50:53 PM): haha

reflectionsarexx (1:50:59 PM): then everyone with orgasm. XDDD

adoreparamore x3 (1:51:02 PM): LOL

adoreparamore x3 (1:51:07 PM): LMAO

reflectionsarexx (1:51:21 PM): :P

adoreparamore x3 (1:51:27 PM): http://photobucket.com/mediadetail/?media=http%3A%2F%2Fi55.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fg142%2Fmarch93%2Foliverskyes.jpg&searchTerm=Oliver%20Skyes

adoreparamore x3 (1:51:32 PM): WHATS HE DOIN WITH HIS HAND

adoreparamore x3 (1:51:33 PM): ?

adoreparamore x3 (1:51:36 PM): LOL

reflectionsarexx (1:51:41 PM): I DUNNO!

reflectionsarexx (1:51:50 PM): I THINK HE IS IMATATING GRABBING A GIRLS ASS

adoreparamore x3 (1:51:51 PM): MAYBE...

reflectionsarexx (1:52:03 PM): probably...XD

reflectionsarexx (1:52:17 PM): Thinking,"Yeah, I want a girl with this big of an ass..." XDD jeezzz.

adoreparamore x3 (1:52:23 PM): LOL

reflectionsarexx (1:52:53 PM): i likkee hiss facceyy. [[x

adoreparamore x3 (1:52:51 PM): SHOULD I PUT THE WHOLE CONVO OR JUST PART OF IT?

adoreparamore x3 (1:52:58 PM): ITS PRETTY AWESOME

reflectionsarexx (1:53:13 PM): i think all the parts with Oliver in them.

adoreparamore x3 (1:53:13 PM): OKAY

reflectionsarexx (1:53:24 PM): I KNOOWW. it`s...SHMEXXXYY. yummehhh.

reflectionsarexx (1:53:51 PM): hiss shirtt his shinyyy

adoreparamore x3 (1:53:52 PM): I KNO!

adoreparamore x3 (1:53:54 PM): OMG

reflectionsarexx (1:54:09 PM): YEAH! WHOA! I WANT IT!!!

reflectionsarexx (1:54:42 PM): maybe if i allow him to fuck me, he`ll give it to me as a,"remember me" gift...or I`ll walk out with it on...XD yiikkesss.

adoreparamore x3 (1:54:49 PM): LMAO

adoreparamore x3 (1:54:53 PM): YOU DO THAT

reflectionsarexx (1:55:13 PM): I WILL. And then everyone will figuuree it ouuttt...

reflectionsarexx (1:55:17 PM): gaahhh

reflectionsarexx (1:55:20 PM): nevermind.

adoreparamore x3 (1:55:25 PM): YOUR SO WEIRD

adoreparamore x3 (1:55:30 PM): SERIOUSLY

reflectionsarexx (1:55:37 PM): I KNOW...

adoreparamore x3 (1:55:34 PM): BUT I LIKE WEIRD PEOPLE

reflectionsarexx (1:55:40 PM): [[:

reflectionsarexx (1:55:42 PM): YAY!

adoreparamore x3 (1:55:38 PM): THEY'RE COOL

reflectionsarexx (1:55:46 PM): HA

reflectionsarexx (1:55:51 PM): you called me cool..[[:

adoreparamore x3 (1:55:53 PM): NORMAL PEOPLE ARE SCARY

reflectionsarexx (1:56:04 PM): I KNNNOWOWOWOW.

reflectionsarexx (1:56:14 PM): it`s like: You have a weirdd side. SHOWOWWOW IT.

reflectionsarexx (1:56:20 PM): weddggiiee.

reflectionsarexx (1:56:36 PM): kkaayy. uhmmmerrsss.

adoreparamore x3 (1:56:48 PM): DO YOU LIKE PINAALLPE?

reflectionsarexx (1:56:59 PM): YES!...[[:

reflectionsarexx (1:57:08 PM): but it itches my tounge sorttaaa...

reflectionsarexx (1:57:16 PM): like kiwwiii.

reflectionsarexx (1:57:26 PM): Vote! [340538 votes total]

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Musiqwards- Breakout Artist of the Year

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True. That's what makes it sad.

READ THIS:

Isnt it funny that when you go to the shops with your friends you look down at the girl with black jeans and studs but smile at the girl wearing a a mini with a tshirt that barely cover anything?

Isnt it funny you can change your music taste to impress a guy but when it comes to a girl who likes her own music and her own style, you give her a mouthful?

Isnt it funny that a guy can get away with being a gangsta but the emo gets a mouthful from everyone

are you laughing?

Isnt it funny an emo can be quiet all through the week but gets more shit from everyone than the girl who sleeps around and sells her virginity?

Isnt it funny that you dont mind your friends drinking, smoking but the minute someone mentions emo music you can give them a lecture on melodramatic teenage outcasts?

im not laughing

Its so funny that you and your friends can make a girls life hell and not know anything about the silent battle she might be fighting.

Isnt it funny that you can call emos, punks, goths the retards but still manage to get through your day without an inch of guilt in your heart.

HOW YOU CAN CALL A GIRL A POSER, HOW CAN YOU SAY "YOUR NOT EMO" OR "ATTENTION SEEKER" WITHOUT SPENDING A SECOND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY THERE ARE CUTS ON HER WRISTS AND WHY SHE SPENDS HER LUNCHTIMES CRYING INSTEAD OR LAUGHING WITH HER FRIENDS

keep on laughing

Isnt it funny you can say and do all this without any idea of what is going on in this persons life

without knowing her situation with her friends

or her family

or her LIFE

BRAVE ISNT GOING UP ON STAGE AND STRIPPING

BRAVE IS NOT SAYING A SPEECH

OR DUMPING YOUR BOYFRIEND

BRAVE IS

GOING TO SCHOOL ON MUFTI DAY AND NOT FOR A SECOND CARE WHAT THE WHORES AROUND YOU ARE SAYING ABOUT YOUR CLOTHES

ITS LISTENING TO YOUR OWN MUSIC AND BEING PROUD OF IT

ITS GOING THROUGH EVERY DAY WITH THE THINGS PEOPLE SAY TO YOUR FACE AND BEHIND YOUR BACK AND YOU STILL KEEP QUIET

ITS KNOWING WHAT YOUR "FRIENDS" ARE SAYING ABOUT YOU AND STILL CALLING THEM YOUR FRIENDS

BRAVE IS KNOWING THAT TOMOROW ISNT A BRIGHT AND HAPPY FUTURE

ITS ANOTHER DAY OF BITCHING AND DODGING RUMORS

keep on laughing

if you agree put this on ur blog

and advise others to do so

(i did not create this)

She Was Only 5...

This is what happened
When she was alive...

Her dad was a drunk
Her mom was an addict
Her parents kept her
Locked in an attic

Her only friend
was a little toy bear
It was old and worn out
And had patches of hair

She always talked to it
When no one's around
She lays there and hugs it
Not a peep of sound

Until her parents
unlock the door
Some more and more pain
She'll have to endore

A bruise on her leg
A scar on her face
Why would she be
In such a horrible place?

But she grabs her bear
And softly crys
She loves her parents
But they want her to die

She sits in the corner
Quiet but thinking,
"Please God, why is
My life always sinking? "

Such a bad life
For a sad little kid
She'd get beaten and beaten
For anything she did

Then one night
Her mom came home high
And the poor child was beaten
As hours went by

Then her mom suddenly
Grabbed for a blade
It was sharp and pointy
One that she made

She thrusted the blade
Right in her chest,
"You deserve to die
You worthless pest!"

The mom walked out
Leaving the girl slowly dieing
She grabbed her bear
And again started crying

Police showed up
At the small little house
Then quickly barged in
Everything quiet as a mouse

One officer slowly
Opened a door
To find the little girl
Lieing on the floor

It must have been bad
To go through so much harm
But at least she died
With her best friend in her arms

A child dies every day from child abuse. And if you have an ounce of pity in you for little Auroura and you hate child abuse with a passion you will repost this and help out those abused children and let them know that someone cared for them. It doesn't take that long only about 10 seconds so please just do it

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